DAY 12: WELCOME TO FAY

Well everyone, I have been extremely busy & I have been without internet. Anyways, I am currently in Fay which is such a wonderful place to live. I love every minute of it. There is so much to do here and I am very excited to say I am a Razorback. The past week as went by fast & I am pleased. I bought my books and parking pass for the summer. My boyfriend who was debating on whether to move to Fay or not is actually moving. I think it will be a wonderful experience for us both. We both love the razorbacks. Yesterday, my sister was upset at something and she confronted me about it. She was pressuring me and making me feel very uncomfortable. As we sit down her friend Bailey comes and eats with us. As i take a couple of bites she starts in on me. She was questioning me again and getting hostile and I felt like I had been attacked. She was going off what Vanessa said my sister. Who had been talking bad after one experience of seeing him. I don't know I know what I am doing I am 18 years old and now I feel like my sister is trying to be a mom instead of a sister. I want to be on my own and her being here is not helping. My boyfriend will be moving here in July&I am thankful for that. But anyways enough about that. I love my new home and everything about it. I am thankful for everything that has happened in my life and truly blessed. I am going home for a couple of days to see my family and check on my grandmas. But thats about it..well its a firday and i must go!

XOXO

JESSICA

DAY 11: ONE DAY ONE FINAL

Alright, so today I finished up with A&P 2 all i can say is THANK GOD. Anyways roads are closed all the way to the house so looks like I am staying in JB! I have one more test tomorrow which will be really easy. I am ready to be done needless to say. I stopped caring to the point because of everything that has happened this week. Fay is coming really close so Il be gladly to get away from the people around here except Nick&Tanya. I am ready to be able to do whatever I want and not have people calling me asking where I am at or what I am doing. Im 18 now, not 16. I check out at 2 tomorrow so that will be great hopefully I can get everything cleaned in time after my test. I really don't wanna go home cause I will have to hear the negativness from mom and dad but mostly mom. I really just wanna tell them to just leave me alone and let me live my life. I think I am in the since of depression almost just because of everything that is going on. But enough about my boring dull life. I am off of here for now I have nothing else to sayyy.

XOXO

JESSICA

DAY 10: THE WATER KEEPS A RISING

Hello Everyone,
  Well this week is my last week as freshmen in college. I am very excited for summer even though I will be taking summer classes in june. But July, I plan on coming back & working. As of now, Arkansas's rivers keep a rising. Elgin road  already closed and so is Newark. The water keeps a rising and we will see how long the floods will last. My thoughts & prayers go out to the farmers epc my boyfriend Nick who will have to replant everything for the Falwells. The storms keep a coming and Arkansas just needs a break from the rain. We are suppose to get another 5-6 inches today and that will put us over the top. This past week horrible tornadoes hit Vilionia which made National News. The weather just keeps getting worse before anything will get better. This week I have been very upset and stressed with school and family. I am second guessing myself on everything that has happened. I don't know what to do anymore. The only person I can really talk to is Nick. He has been giving me advice. My family doesn't tell me anything anymore but they love to bug me and ask me what I am doing who I am with or where I am at. I am tired of answering the phone and questions. I know that when I am in Fay that the phone will need to stop ringing. I am 18 years old it shouldn't matter where I am at or who I am with anymore. I have came to the conclusion that I will need a break in July. And Nick & I are already plannning a trip to the beach wish I think we both deserve. I am ready to get away from here and be alone. I managed a year by myself I can do it 5 more. I am sorry for not writing but today was like really my only day. So ta ta for now!!!

XOXO

JESSICA

DAY 9: COMING TO AN END.

Hello Fellow Readers well the semester is coming to an end. I have to say I am more than ready to be moving and starting my life. I am sorry for not blogging yesterday. Okay, so lets go back to 2 days ago. Well Tuesday was my last lab practical which i posted in day 8's blog. Anyways, so I did very well on my practical which I studied hard core for. The weather was unfair Tuesday night which there was tornadoes everywhere. So let me tell everyone how this all went down. I was checking the weather on the news and their was severe storms everywhere. So I got prepared for the worst took all my pillows into my bathroom and i put a sweatshirt and hog pjs on. So then they come knocking on my dorm door saying I need to take cover to the basement. I had no bra on underneath my suiteshirt and cami. I go down to the basement with Tanya&Brooke. we are all freaking out along with 300 other girls in one tight space. I was sweating like a pig / skyping with my sister telling her to remember me. It was a crazyy night sitting in a dorm basement with stinkky girls and watching them eat churches's chicken. I mean really eating chicken at 1030 at night is CRAZZZZZYYYYYY... Anyways the next day Wednesday was one of the last days for class for me. I have had a rough semester but I am glad its all coming to an end by far. Today, was a normal day for me I turned in my oral comm final and went back to sleep until 1 pm. Then I did laundry and finished my a&p paper. The day as needless to say been a very productive/not day. Tomorrow I will be going to class then going to a dinner party tomorrow night with many friends and maybe a concert. Lets hope for the best and safe travels. I want to say I hope everyone has had a wonderful week be safe on Easter weekend and have a wonderful friday tomorrow. I will be blogging and hope everyone does to!

XOXO

JESSICA

DAY 8: ANOTHER DAY

Fellow readers, well today is another day for me here at arkansas state. Another day of humidity and white walls that remind me of jail. I look out the window and the wind just blows as I watch other people walk by. Just a lil while ago I finished my last LAB A&P  practical. I was very pleased with my test. I studied a lot though. I had to say goodbye to my TA Ritika. She will be attending med school in Florida. She was a wonderful teacher and I learned a lot from her alone. She is not only my teacher, not my friend but i consider her a sister. I wish her the best on her travels and she will be a wonderful doctor. Anyways yesterday was one of the worst days of my crappiest days lord help us. Today is my suite-mates birthday. She got a new car but we are going to Hiro a chineese restaurant for her birthday. Only down side is she wants to go at 7:30 hello, this girl has got to eat before then!!!! But its her birthday I'l suck up my hungry sounds to my stomach and make it. I also need to work on my a&p paper due friday. I have worked on some of it but its not nowhere finished.  So I have only 2 tests left of this semester like I'l need to partty or take a mini vacayyyy. Actually only vacation I will be doing is moving to fay. I am nowhere near packed but school comes first. I wish I would be able to be caught up but I don't see it happening trying to please everyone in their right mind. But I should be thankful to be breathing and living so all well. I just hope my a&p test goes well I have an A in there but still a test can drop a grade just like so fast it ain't even funny. I really should take a nap cause I can notice I am getting cranky and hating liffffe. Nothinng seems to be going my way these days & most of the time I want to give up. People tell me I need to relax and not be stressed but there is no way. Im worried about money, what people think, if their happy or what not. I can't even make myself happy. When I go home, I just sit around like a log. Gas prices are to high to be doing anything around this part. Most people don't realize that being in the med profession you can't just go out or do what you want. I am always doing A&P or trying to catch up on sleep or studying. I never thought I would be like this but I have became a nerd. I remind myself of my sister and how she would sit in her room alone making flash cards or studying. School is like a 7 day week job except you don't get paid. Your paying for your job which is stupiddddddd. Let me call Mr. Obama & tell him what I think. But anyways enough about that crap. I guess i better get off of here and do something productive like work on my paper thats due friday. I hope everyone has had a wonderful Tuesday I will be talking to yal tomorrrow well for the ones that read that is!

XOXO

JESSICA.

DAY 7: STRESSFUL

Alright fellow followers. Well today's title is STRESSFUL. The reason is this morning I awoke at 5:30 am to register for my classes at the UofA. Alright well I didn't know ISIS opened at 6 am so I was already in bed crying my eyes out thinking I wouldn't be able to register or get into the classes I wanted. So at 6 am I was able to log in and when I plug in all my classes it said I wasn't able to register reason was i had a HOLD on my account. Now for every college student that is the worst thing you can think of well in my opinion. So I email my advisor right away she takes her hold off of my account. I call U of A they need my shot record. So i run to the transcript office like a blind bat..the lady at the desk in my opinion was not polite lets just say ***** we won't say any dirrrty words though. Anyways, I pay my 4 dollars to fax my shot records like a happy camper. So i sent my records and automatically they went through. I am now registered for classes in the summer and fall. Tonight I will be studying A&P Lab. Which will be the death of me by far. I have one week before final starts i move in 2 weeks everything is coming so fast so quickly I don't know if i will be able handle it. Anyways I am sorry for everyone reading this if your amuzed or it makes up mad. whateverrrr everyone have a wonderful mondayyyy!

XOXO

JESSICA.

DAY 6. TGIF

Hello Everyone,
  It was a wonderful friday a little breezy but very wonderful. Last night, the whole state dealt with strong storms and such as tornados and hail. My sister who lives in southern arkansas was asleep & as I was watching the weather she was in the tornado path. My thoughts and prayers go out to the ones who lost their homes due to winds and the people without power. I woke up at 9 am this morning and got ready for my day I got everything settled with the UofA which I am so proud about. My major is very competitive and I will try my hardest to get the internship at the very end of my college career. The move is coming closer and my family is heading to Fay today to clean and what not! Tonight I will watching The Visit while visiting with friends afterwards. I need a break then tomorrow which I will not be posting until Monday. I live out in the boonies people no internet if i do its dial up. Anyways, I am on a high stress level of everything. I hope everyone has a wonderful safe and happy weekend. I am off for today!

XOXO

JESSICA.